15.2.10

counting numbers

It’s been 212 days since I’ve seen your face
It been 213 days since I’ve seen you smile
It’s been 225 day since you told me you loved me
It’s been 248 days since you meant it
It’s been 1 day since I’ve wanted to see you
It’s been 1 month since you wanted to see me
It’s been 1 year, 2 months, 2 weeks, and four days since we met
It’s been 2 years since I graduated
It’s been 2 weeks since I earned it
It’s been 4 years without unicorns
And it’s been a year and a half without hope
It’s been 4 years since we moved in together
It’s been three and a half years since we started living together
It’s been 232 says since your voice kissed mine in perfect harmony
It’s been 219 days since I laughed at your jokes
It’s been a lifetime since we knew each other
It’s been 525, 600 minutes since I left
It’s been 525, 575 minutes since I came back.
It’s been 168 hours since I cried over you
It’s been 5900 minutes since I grew up
It’s been a lot of wasted time since then
It’s been a minute since I thought about calling you
It’s been 30 seconds since I told her not to.
It’s been a long time.
It’s been too long.

...like it matters

She tells me you don’t love her
But is she merely trying
To keep me from breaking down
Keeping me from crying

And it sucks, ‘cause they’re saying
“They’re so cute!”
if I’m not gonna win,
can I finally lose?


TAG: And I’m only dreaming
My head foggy, my head reeling
Wish I’d never met you
Wish I never forget you
Tougher, and tougher, to remain smiling, still
I can’t, and I shouldn’t, but I know that I will
Nod, and laugh, like there is nothing wrong
And pretend it hasn’t hurt me all along

She’ll make you happy,
She make you smile,
God, you’re so sappy
But all the while

I’ll be here, wishing
That I could take her place
That when I woke up every morning,
I got to see your smiling face

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First love, first crush, and first romance,
Stuck in a dream, stuck in this trance
I’m tired of talking like we still have a chance,
Cause I know when it comes down to it,
She’ll have the last dance

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